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Felix Lugo

Stone Wall Love | A Poem by Felix Lugo

I don’t think anyone could ever love you as much as me.
The truth is…you’re my weakness…
Many people look up to me.
Some I know and others I will never know…
But I do know I must stay strong for them…
Your words mean so much to me
that it replays in my mind and there’s no period.
I repeat the same sentences that made me fall in love with you.
I think of you often…I lie…I think of you everyday…
The seconds seem to be hours and the days seem to be years
when I am not with you.
The biggest regret I have ever done is leaving you behind…
When my heart told me to stay…
My mind confused it with thoughts of
“where would you live? How would you survive?”
The heart slowly was battling these thoughts
and for some reason I heard my voice say “good-bye”
I know you don’t see me in the same light
that is why I will always remain in the shade.
The lost shadows that are never noticed and ignored.
I don’t know if you know this
but when I get emotional I like to look outside the window and view
“life” people, trees, birds, and the sky
for I know that somewhere in the world someone is doing the same as me.
I have smiled for years and lost my heart along the way.
I covered it with hope…
When internally I was breaking down…
I have traveled great distances
and along the way particles of my heart can be found…
Many wondered…many questioned:
How such a person as myself could not have someone to share this type of love.
I found myself questioning the same reason.
Maybe I was meant not to love but to inspire people to love.
I had a moment to share my feelings with you…
That moment we don’t always get.
People spend a lifetime for such occurrence.
Some never get to experience it.
I was very lucky to have my moment of clarity when I found you.
Your words captivated me and your presence gave me ease.
Do you remember when I first told you that I love you?
It meant the world to me…
I came a long way and even though I didn’t take you with me.
I took the most precious thing from you.
When the world around us was silent…
Just you and I…
I looked at you…you smiled with thoughts wondering…
For the first time I felt serenity.
Internally healed.
Alive again.
I felt you.
I would like to believe in that moment
our hearts were beating at the same time.
We were connected.
Like the feeling of the breath before the kiss and the touch of your embrace.
Erased everything I ever knew.
Within that moment I knew nothing but you…
You were my world…and everything I ever believed in I saw through you…
It was you that brought me here.
I had you…
Even for just a moment.
We had each other.
I left my heart behind but my memories traveled with me.
I cherish those thoughts…
Remember when you wrote my name on the stone wall?
You were being silly but I took a picture of it.
I imagined you writing my name on your heart.

You, Life & Mistakes | A Poem by Felix Lugo

You will grow but only you will know for how long.

Friends will come but many will go.

Family will stay but some will leave you too.

Relationships will be built but many will hurt you.

Success will show but not always before or after you fail first.

You will gain it all but you will lose it all too.

Love will come but will betray you because you won’t know any better
first time around.

Mistakes will take place and you will be wiping tears off your face.

The bathroom will be the safest place you can be yourself. As you look
at the mirror and go through many thoughts.

You will fall and feel alone in the dark.

Influential things will take its course but ultimately its up to you
to be the victim or the one who avoids it all.

Fights will come but not all punches must land on your face.

The beauty of fights you don’t always have to run but stand tall and
walk away.

There will be tests brought to your attention but you don’t always
have to pass them.

Learn from mistakes and don’t recreate them.

You start your education after graduation. Never let anyone tell you
any different.

Teachers will teach but you will only remember the educators. Listen
to them.

Secrets will be shared but you don’t always have to pass it along or
hear them.

Sometimes things are better said and also not said at all.

I know you will get confused and not everything must make sense to
you.

Not all you will go through must have an answer.

Understanding is key but you create the lock to the door you are
trying to open to life.

You will try and fail. You will try and fail.

You will try until you realize that trying is better than failing.

Life is precious don’t end it right away.

Speak to someone.

Listen to what others before your time have to say.

Stress will occur.

Solutions will come.

Conflicts will surface.

Circumstances will dominate.

Take a step back.

Breathe and rejuvenate.

Live life not like is your last day but like you just started life
today.

Letting Go | A Poem by Felix Lugo

She deserves more than I could ever give her.
There was a time where we shared our love for each other.
I did not protect that love. I abandoned it. I lost her.
We had something special. Our love was pure. Innocent.
Somewhere inside me I knew what was the right thing to do.
Yet, I failed. I only thought for myself. I was selfish.
She gave me her trust. I took advantage. I was wrong.
All this time my true love was in front of me.
I blinded myself. I saw all but didn’t see her.
She waited and waited some more.
Through the years her love never faded.
There was hope in her heart.
My heart was empty.
She wanted to fill that hurt.
People say in time we eventually learn from our mistakes.
She will always be the one I failed to keep.
The one I let go.
When all this time she was just trying to build our home.